To anyone gossiping about my recent health issues...I'll clear some things up for ya so you can have 'facts' and not speculation. YES...I do indeed have HIV, okay? And as I have had it under control for 8 years, it got away from me recently and I got sick!
IT HAPPENS...AND NOT ONLY TO GAY MEN...AND THERE ARE MILLIONS OF US - GAY, STRAIGHT, BLACK, WHITE, RICH, WHITE TRASH, YUPPIES...IN THE USA ALONE...MILLIONS OF US WHO HAVE THIS DISEASE AND YOU ARE PROBABLY IN CONTACT WITH AT LEAST ONE PERSON DAILY AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT, WHO HAS IT WHO DOESN'T EVEN KNOW IT...SO GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!
Oh, and educate yourself...its 2014...not 1985!!!!!!!!!!!
Unless I cut my finger off and squirt blood in your eyeball or we have sex, your chances of catching anything from me is 0%!!
Just like you can't catch diabetes or high blood pressure just by being in the same room or in close quarters! It is actually ME that can catch stuff from YOUR DIRTY ASS that can make ME sick at this current point in time! And as far as sex goes...you have NOTHING to worry about, with that kennel club there...not into fat stomachs, lack of teeth, and white trash drug attict people who smell! (Sorry to be so rude but I'm fucking angry and this, of course, is not aimed at everyone...or the majority of everyone...but the ones who talked shit!)
You know, even in Terre Haute in 2014!!!!!, I thought people in general here would be more educated about THIS disease. I've just recently heard about some of the negative comments (and they may not even work there anymore) that were said about me, mainly when I was still working there. AND, people saying, oh ya it's HIV, whom I have never told, so ya, people were and are indeed talking behind my back. And I KNOW not EVERYONE is talking shit, in fact I would guess that most people at the OG aren't because I felt & received so much love from sooooo many (and I ADORE YOU!) at this job...and from the AMAZING Shelly!
I've been just as guilty of gossiping about people, and in regards to THIS subject, in my day too...I don't want to be a total hypocrite...and I know how it works in the restaurant business...whispers, talking...things spread faster than a hooker's legs at a navy port. My biggest fear from this though has always been that people would think I was gross or contagious and talk behind my back about it, with most likely a dash of homophobia...but I am NOT GROSS! - Anyone that said things about not wanting to be around me "because of" ...YOU ARE GROSS!!!> and probably a useless eater white trash! And anyone who is "scared" of me now...I have been making some decisions for my life (since I came close to but DIDN'T die 3 weeks ago) ... which most likely isn't going to involve me coming back to the OG or ANY restaurant to earn money, anymore but NOT because I am ashamed or scared! PLEASE...if I did or do come back there to work, I'd hold my bleached blonde head up high and proud! And I've been "talked about" before in this life...I am a strong bitch and a big boy, I can handle it but I'll be damned if I'm just going to "be quiet" and NOT stand up for myself.
And again, the majority of the staff is probably not saying "bad" things about me, I know I have a lot of support and love, I just had to express my disgust for anyone who DID say "bad" things about me!
AND, to the people who didn't want to "be around me" because of my illness or that I had pneumonia (which the kind I had was NOT contagious) - I'd be more worried about catching the flu, or herpes from the employee bathroom toilet...not something from me!
By the way, by next spring, thanks to medicine (which I won't screw up again) - I will be undetectable AKA (like I don't even have it) and a normal immune system again...just like EVERYONE ELSE and I'll be a person (PERSON) who just happens to have a chronic illness that is treatable with medicine and not some "gross contagious diseased faggot that you can catch something from" - so to the people who did talk negative shit about me and this, may I suggest turning off the football game or Duck Dynasty just for a few moments and get on that I-phone or laptop, or better yet, read a book about it (if you can read) and EDUCATE YOURSELF about things you know NOTHING about...BEFORE you start talking your negative shit!!!
I am a very very lucky and blessed person...I have had so much support and love in my life...not only in regards to this stupid fucking disease but every way in life. I am an often times self absorbed artist and I get distracted but I NEVER forget that and once again, this isn't aimed at the majority of the OG staff...just the few I heard talking negative shit about me. I expressed some anger, I cleared some things up and I feel much better now!
K, that's all. ~peace~
J.
